93. Give Up

Night falls and I stare at stars
Mercury, Venus, the moon and Mars
How much precious time has passed
How much longer will this last?

Helplessness falls as crying rain
Tears in my eyes, what a pain!
The gas lamp burns my hope away
Second by second I sit and decay

It's a matter of time before it stops
When the clock stops ticking the cuckoo pops
Life sieving through my dirtied hands
Frozen and dead, lost are sands

'Hell', 'Heaven', 'Deed' and 'Crime'
Many illusions we acts and mime
Blunt and pointless, that's just life
Reality hits like a sharpened knife

I hear you whispering behind my back
My soul is torn, my mind cracked
The silver thread you hold in you hands
They cut me deep, those bloodied strands

Talk to me; keep me sane
The tangent the curve the vertice the plane
Hurry, be quick! Call my name!
Though the way you do it was never the same

Sing of shame, sing of regret
Let you go, I should never have let
Hold it tight you useless fool
Cursing myself keeping my cool

I hopelessly watch as you went away
Like a kite in the sky on a windy day
Silver string dangling that I couldn't hold
The wounds it cut into me still remain cold

What my life, a life wasted
A life planned, but never created
Hope, dreams, love and peace
Were never for me, of great unease

So in the dark under moonlight
Pondering about my future not bright
Too much sacrifice too much hate
I'll give up "my" dreams and leave it to fate.